trigger warning:i discuss my delusions and psychotic episodes here.
mentions of: abuse, self harm, disoriented thoughts/writings, mentions of false memories, incest mention etc. please read with caution!!!
had to delete twitter and instagram and every other social media that has a picture sharing option simply because i cannot stand when other people say they love my husband. aegon is mine. i am literally helaena. stop saying you love my husband.
there's a raven or crow that keeps watching me from my window, even when i close my curtains i know he's watching me and he whispers into my ear at night when i sleep so he interupts my dreams. he keeps telling me to wear white and drink milk but never wear black so now i'm trying to get rid of everything that is black in my wardrope. but my mom is probably gonna ask why and i don't want to deal with that. so now what do i do? just tell her i don't like black clothes anymore i guess
watched too much house of the dragon, now i am convinced that i amhelaena targaryen. i have seen my dragon, dreamfyre. i have felt the love of my children, the weight of the death of my son. the pain and heartache. i remember the smell of wine on my brothers breath as he lied on top of me. and in some odd way, i love him too even though he is awful, disgusting and twisted. i suppose i am too.
leave me alone please just leave me alone i can't stand it anymore aaaahdusahfuadghasdhgj#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i saw someone say they were the "real" columbina and it made me want to rip my hair out cause no they're not. i am the only me that exists.
